Before I gave birth to the twins, I spent a lot of time getting posts ready to go for this blog. Then, when they were itty bitty and always sleeping, I could blog more. Then, I would blog and craft during nap times or after they went to bed. I also found that I had last minute wrap-up things that I wanted to complete, and I did those while baby wearing. I might have also checked my phone while we were in the playroom and they were bouncing or playing or nursing…
My head was full of to-do lists and cleaning tasks and other things. I couldn’t get on their level because my back and shoulder was injured, so I would sit with my phone in my hand and a baby in the other.
Then I stopped and thought.
What if something were to happen to my babies? Some freak accident? Would all this matter?
No, I wasn’t ignoring them or letting them get into something unsafe. I was doing everything possible to keep them safe and happy and healthy.
But things happen.
And if something were to happen, would I regret my current actions?
I would regret looking at the phone instead of my babies while I bottle-fed them or nursed them. I would have hated that I responded to those 14 messages instead of got on my hands and knees and played.
So what am I doing now?
Blogging less (have you noticed it’s not every day anymore?), playing more. Laughing more. Observing more. Reading more. Singing more. Happy more.
Don’t worry, this blog isn’t going anywhere. My work with The Wise Baby and How Do You Do It? isn’t going anywhere.
My babies will be growing up.
And I will be enjoying this time with them while I can. The dishes aren’t done. My face hasn’t seen makeup in months. There are dust bunnies everywhere. But we are having a grand ole time, and I love it!